Today was a day for tea and porches.

Ok! Journals!  I am trying to upload really ugly ones so you understand how awkward journals can look. And then. maybe more people will submit and it'll be great.

if you like to be interviewed I would like to know. I love interviewing. 

Anyways. I know its late today. I'm sorry so so sorry I had a big problem with my internet/computer and I didn't think anyone would mind. I mean. its a friday. who is really sitting at home waiting for me to update ( I sort of hope there is really someone like that out there).

Today I watched degrassi.

Today bryce gave me a paper heart

Today I spent thirty minutes soaking fruit in juice

Today I watched Drumline

Today I woman's weave saved her life.

Today while walking into school I found a penny, heads up, a good day.

Today I recieved a letter.

Today was a good day, a really great day.

I have alot to say, I have alot to do, I have alot to dream and it makes me feel tired and maybe a little bit upset, and I'm not sure why and so I'm going to make instant coffee andcurl up in blankets in my backyard and look into the sky. 

I am eating a guava. its great. Sorry this post is a bit late

ok. so. first:
So! I found my black journal today! And as celebration I'm uploading more than usual today! hooray!

If you look to the side you will view the first art piece that is being dispayed to your left, you should be astounded by all those colors!

The text is notes on absurd/existentialism. The colors are absurd. GET IT?!

This was done with soft pastals, and the colors have faded alot. When I first did it it was alot more vibrant, try and imagine.

it kind of looks like a tunnel, and if I had to assign my mind in a way I would pick a further faded version of this. So many places to burrow.


And the next piece! A two page spread!


The right most page of the spread is faces drawn while in Miami. I learned how to draw noses there. I would go to breakfast early every morning and just move from table to table, drawing.

the other page is some faces and just random scribbles. I don't really like that page (if you look in the left upper corner of that page you can see me trying to convince myself other wise)

But I included it because it was next to the faces pa ge and I kind of wanted to include an awkward journal page?

Because. Ugly is allowed, with art I feel like ugly and awkward are SO nessacary, I feel like if we are always worried about not being ugly we can't progress and so yes. that s an ugly page. I am sharing. your turn.

So I hoped you notice the layout/font changes (how could you not) I figured out I needed a stretch template and I have always loved black backgrounds and white text on black background looked too bright. so I played with it.

I feel unprofessional with the background this way, and I might change it but I must admit that I like it. Thoughts?

So I'm trying to post the art first, and this random other stuff later because I feel like people feel obliged to read the other stuff. I'm working on a more thought based blog.

Also! Don't forget about kiva.org.

ok! I have a really superb night! I'm so sorry I was late on the post tonight.

OH. BEFORE I FORGET. Today ryann and ben came over and ryann dyed bens hair (I wrote a letter) and left the extra dye here. So I fished it out of the trash so I"m going to try and make some art but then I'm going to take a shower immediately after so I don't get everywhere. I'll let you know how it turns out :]

BYE. and sorry this is late again!

I just want everyone to know that my grandmother was on the news today

EDIT: TO PROPERLY SEE THE PICTURE BELOW (I'M ONLY DISPLAYING THE FIRST HALF) PLEASE GO HERE

Today was such an exciting day!

1. I went running through the rain! (it was a really lovely exp

ierance and I can't wait to do it again when there are real puddles!) 

2. See title (my grandmother made us all sit infront of the television and wa

tch her watch her.)

3. I heard Grace say something crude in econ and I didn't even think she was capable of it! 

4. I figured out how to make delicious indian yogurt!

5. I'm updating from my computer.

6. Someone told me I'm a great artist and I"m wasting my talent by not pursuing it (I don't really agree but what a compliment!)

7. my room smells like a candle that I swiped from my bro

thers room and adore the smell of.

8. THERE ARE SUGAR CREEK BANDS. I AM SO CURIOUS ABOUT THEM. I CAN HEAR THEM PRACTICE. IF YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION ON THEM LET ME KNOW.

9. My mom just gave me a pint of pineapple that she happened to

 forget about, and itsss sooooo good!

10. Kiva.org , which everyone should check out and lend too, is h

elping out millions of third world entrepeneurs! Knowing that it exists makes me feel great :]

and. the reason why this is the best day ever....

11 (I'm sorry. I'm pulling a spinal tap. I couldn't resist). ITS GUEST BLOGGER DAY!

today our lovely guest blogger is Ms. Becca! she is GREAT. I have known her since I was in third grade and I love this woman. She is the type of person who will suprise you, someone who is quitely brilliant. She listens to people (really. she really does) and then, when they are finsihed she will take on something really innovative and its a great conversation stimulator. Her creative style, and journal page that she submitted really really makes me smile! It is adorable! (Secret: I saw one of her early early journals and was inspired to start an idea book. what an inspiration.)

I understand if you are interested in stalking her, or being her best friend, or wanting to tell her that she is adorable, but if you let me know (maybe with your own journal submisssion, eh? eh?) I'll pass along the message.

OTHER [IMPORTANT] NEWS: I am going to try and update everyday before 8 (because apparently thats when the most people look on this)

Instead of doing a series of guest journals, I'm going to do one a wednesday, and you know. devote like. alot of the blog to talking about you, so please submit :] Everyone draws at least once in their life and I love looking at those drawings! 

Have a good night! 

Let's get down to buisness...

...to defeat the huns!

Ok. We have alot to talk about today.

1. if you have not already noticed LOOK TO THE RIGHT. yes! yes! I am taking submissions of journal pages and I"m really excited because the best part about journals is JOURNAL SHARING. and I would really be happy if you sent me in some art ms. becca already has and I can't wait to post it tomorrow.

2. Journal for today

I was really inlove with this piece when I did it, then I set the last two pages of my journal on fire and you can see a burn mark on ehr leg and it just makes me incredibly upset when I look at it. but rest assured, at the time it was gorgeous.

3. Did you know about kiva.org ? I didn't!

Kiva.org is the best thing in the world. You lend money to third world entrepenurs in $25 increments and they pay you back plus interest! Which means you can take your money when they are done with it and buy yourself some ice cream and congratulate yourself on contributing AND you can reinvest it in some other third world country :] And. 97% of the participants repay their loans, Thats better credit than most us citizens can ever hope to have!

so yes. help the world. help the ECONOMY invest $25 and help a nation develop


4. So. I am realizing that I like updating every day and that I like this blog alot, and that I definetly definetly want everyone to send me pictures of their art/ text journals. I want everything you have to offer. I'm also realizing that I have alot on my mind all the time and I am pretty sure that I am going to develop another blog for writing/textually creative things.

5. SEND ME YOUR JOURNALS.

Your mom wants to go out drinking, want to come?

My dad burst into my room this morning, asking me the above question. It was a good morning. (I'm kidding. He went to work, not to the bar.)

Anyways. This morning I woke up several times, and each time I would push myself back into sleep, and as a result I remember SO MANY dreams. Each one ranged from mildly macrabe to incredibly sinister (the last one involved sugar creek muggings and I was so scared that I just gave up on sleep)

I've heard alot of people talk about lucid dreams, and I never understood the concept correctly because I realize I'm dreaming all the time, but if I try and change the course of the dream I just wake up, but today I remember this moment I had in the middle of a dream where I understood I was a dream and distorted the faces of everyone around me. Then I changed into a giant bird.

But enough pillow talk! I've reinvested my faith in my trusty scanner, and hopefully, it will work. So. To begin. This is a scanned in view of yesterday's post:

I finally go it up (thats what she said) and I had to try like 6 times. So. Appreciate. It doesn't look like this anymore and I don't know how happy I am with that but when I'm finished with it you won't even know what you're looking at.

And I have a couple new things to share with this post like one of my first journals. It is important for everyone looking at this journal to know that THOSE ARE NOT SWASTIKAS. THEY ARE HINDU RELIGIOUS SYMBOLS. NOT SWASTIKAS. I AM NOT A NAZI.

But, my mom gave me this journal when I started claires class and that was when I really really started journaling. Its divided into four sections and in each section you can see my progress as an artist.

Today I'm going to take something from the third section, a two page spread.











So once you recover from this great trilogy of images, look closer at them. They might be hard to read, but all the typed text can be found at my old xanga (www.xanga.com/ostrichface). By typed I mean bolded text, the regularly typed text was something I printed out from y private computer journals, and it is important to understand that while I kept these journals I had a huge problem with empty space and this page drove me crazy because I couldn't obliterate it all.

Neha, I don't know if anyone else is having that problem? On my computer I am able to enlarge them, but I will oook around see what the problem is and if its on my end. I am able to enlarge them on this computer and my mac, but I'll leave my ip address and see if thats still true.

And! Another question for everyone reading. I really really am interested in the process of how you dream, dreams you've expieranced, really anything about sleep you are willing to share. I also understand that you can't comment without an account which is a shame, so email or facebook your answer to me. I'm interested.

There are some smells that you can't learn to love. There are people like that too.

Today. Today was one of those quiet smoky days. Today I woke up and wanted to puke. Puking feels like it should be a metaphor for something, as if puking is some well known tired archetype.  

Today I really wanted to go to the park but everyone was too busy. I felt like I was five years old.  

During the summer I'm going to spend every day at the park.

I want everyone to know that I tried to update an hour ago (because I have no life. I'm just kidding. I have a life. Gotcha.) and it was extremely extremely difficult. So today instead of the nicely scanned enlargable pictures we have something more...simplistic.

yes. yes I did just take pictures with my macbook of a piece of art that I worked on earlier today. Yes, yes you can see my fingers in some of the pictures. And yes, the lighting is terribly.

But in desperate times, I'm not afraid to lose my dignity :] 

So, tonight, I'm going to sit on my porch, listen to the rain and animal and collective and burn holes into the above art, and post it tomorrow? Or edit into todays post. We'll see what time I get done.

So in my last post I admitted to having a blog counter. Its a really indepth one with graphs and pie charts and everything. I know all sorts of stuff like I've had 23 unique visitors, and! That the majority of them use macs (3 use windows).

Whenever I get bored I check it. And. ok. I have a question for my visitors.

What do you like? 

Part of this blog is a way for me to preserve and share my journals, but I'm also curious as to what you like? Is it ok if I talk about wanting to puke? my day? not going to the park? 

Ok. so. 23 visitors. thats exciting. I am exciting. 

And I feel beat like the red vegetable.

Confession: I have installed a secret person tracker on here and I was reviewing the stats today. 15 people, which is alot and none at all all at once, but either way I was pleased. My secret counter also told me that alot of people looked around 11pm, which makes sense because I did claim to update this daily, and one would assume it would be up by then. But nope. nothing, and for that I apologize.

Updating daily is hard. It requires resposiblity, but I'm still going to try it. I like the idea of updating daily.


Ok so. Today was a tiring day (like most weekends) and I had planned to complete this great pastal piece by tonight but I got too wrapped up with being alive so instead I'm posting an old art piece. I understand that today and yesterday the posts have kind of sucked. its a weekend thing. It'll improve in quality hopefully tomorrow.
So. This was done with spray paint and pens. Nothing too complicated or exciting. It exists inside the yellow orange rooster journal. Its GREAT.

Thats all for tonight. I'm sorry its not better, but I have to say I'm exhausted by the exterior circumstances of my life.

Good night! Happy valentines day!